Former The Bachelorette star Hannah Brown is struggling with happiness after the season finale of the ABC reality show. She’s opened up on Instagram about her time out of the spotlight.
Brown experienced one of the more difficult seasons of The Bachelorette. Three of her suitors were rumored to have serious girlfriends back home before they began filming the season. Another attempted to sex-shame her on national TV. Then, not long after contestant Jed Wyatt proposed to her on the season finale, she found out he’d lied about being in a relationship before the show. When she attempted to rekindle things with the runner-up, Tyler Cameron, he started dating supermodel Gigi Hadid. Basically, she’s had a hard time the past few weeks. She recently opened up about her struggle with happiness since The Bachelorette finale.
On her Instagram Stories, Brown said that she was often asked if she was happy lately and that she hated the question. She said she’s not sure if she’s happy, since a lot of what’s happened to her the past month has been difficult. While she has moments of happiness, Brown added, “happiness is fleeting.” The reality star said she uses devotionals – types of religious observances – to cope during this time. She said they’ve helped her with “cleansing her heart” and “healing” following the finale. Despite the ups and downs, Brown said she wanted to “choose joy” and that it “infiltrates the soul.”
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Honest policy: I’m struggling. Life is so different. Since last August, I’ve been a pageant queen, a bachelor contestant, and the Bachelorette. I’ve been in love with multiple people, I got engaged, I broke off an engagement, and I shared it all with millions of people. My faith has been questioned by thousands who don’t know my heart, and my transparency with my decisions has labeled me promiscuous. Simultaneously, I’ve become a role model for young women and started bigger conversations around faith, and sex. // I’m living on my own for the first time and shuffling through this life of next steps with press, media, and opportunities galore. I miss my friends and family who have watched my life explode. I feel guilty because I don’t have the time or emotional capacity to fill each of them in on my life right now. I can’t keep up with the people who matter most, because I can barely keep up with my own life right now. // I am not complaining about this past year of adventures. The woman who has emerged would shock the mirror-image young girl from a year ago. I have so many blessings to be thankful for. However it’s uncharted territory for me, and it’s been hard to really process what the heck is going on. // Maybe I needed write this out to remind myself I’m human and it’s okay to be overwhelmed. And maybe, I just needed to remind you guys too. Life is beautiful, but wild. I think it’s okay to be strong-to know you’re strong-but to still feel weak simultaneously. I believe that’s when the magic happens. My spirit has opportunity to grow and blossom from this place. Healing and restoration can happen. I can rest knowing that My Savior has compassion and wants to help and love me through this journey. I’ve just got to let Him. I don’t know if I have been lately— but I am now because honestly, I think I would give out if I didn’t. So yeah, I’m not going to struggle to disguise my weakness— I’m just gonna give over the keys to my main man Jesus and let him bless me through this ride. Isaiah 54:10
Brown had previously talked about how difficult life had been since the finale. In an Instagram post, she wrote that life was “so different” and that it was a whirlwind to get engaged and end that relationship in just a few weeks – and in front of the world. She said she’d been heartbroken and had her faith and integrity questioned. But at the same time, she’s been able to set an example for young women, and said she’s grateful for the opportunities that have come her way. Brown was recently cast in Season 28 of Dancing with the Stars, along with Queer Eye star Karamo Brown.
It makes sense that Brown is going through a difficult time right now. It’s hard to imagine what it’d be like to go through all of that while being in the public eye. But she’s got a lot of once-in-a-lifetime opportunities ahead of her, so hopefully she bounces back soon. Maybe she’ll get to redeem herself and take home the Mirrorball Trophy.
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